"I'd move to Rockferry...tomorrow."

114 day till I get married!!! Yea, seems like a long way away, but I'm trying to convince myself that it will fly by.

I've been feeling very strange lately. I think it's just starting to hit me that I will be a "Mrs." in just 4 short months. Mrs.....I don't feel ready for that at all. I mean, Josh's mom, and Josh's grandma, are both Mrs. LaFave, but me? Me, "Mrs. LaFave"? Sounds way to distinguished for me. I'm just a 22 year old girl trying to make it in this world. Also, "wife." Me? A wife? Doesn't sound like a title someone should be calling me. I'm going to have to think of a different word that I want Josh to introduce me as when we're married. Maybe he could say, "I'd like to introduce you to my partner." I mean, I am kinda his partner (right?)

I guess this whole wedding/marriage/married life thing is sorta hard for me to figure out. Everyone says that nothing changes when you get married, but I'm feeling different right now. I feel like my identity will be "updated." My last name, my address, my marital status. It seems to be a crazy process for women. I do think things will change...in a good way. I've waited a long time to go to bed, and wake up next Josh. I've been very patient with our living situation. I can't wait to combine our lives, so I hope things do change for us.

Two people that seem to have this "marriage" thing down pat....Barack and Michelle Obama. I was at Wal-Mart today and while waiting in the check out lane I was reading and article on them. I don't think you can fake the amount of P.D.A. those two show each other. They don't care whose around, they'll show they love each other to anyone! Talk about a rock solid relationship. Damn, those two seem to have it all right now, and I couldn't be happier for them.

On another note....Duffy is soothing my soul right now. Her voice is like angels in my ears. Here are lyrics that I'm considering turning into vows for my marriage.

"Don't you be wasting all your money on syrup and honey,
Because I'm sweet enough.
Don't you be using every minute on making a living,
Because we've got our love.

Listen to me,
1,2,3, Baby
Spend your time on me.

Don't you be out all night long,
Leaving me all alone, because I need your love.
Don't you be spending every day
Working away, because I'm waiting for you."